Today is day 21 of sobriety from pornography. I have reason to believe that I can have some kind of stability when it comes to recovery this time. I should add that I believe my anti-depressant is helping a little bit in this area. I know that lasting sobriety has to do with not putting confidence in the flesh. I’m very hesitant to say anything positive about my recovery because I don’t want it to sound like I’m puffed up or proud. I will say that 21 days is a good start, considering that my tendencies lean towards acting out with porn every two to three days. Thankfully, God’s grace has got me past that cycle thus far.
I had my first test in my history class today. I’d say I feel pretty good about it. Hopefully she’ll grade it and I’ll know what I made within the next few days. I’ve been trying to get outside more and be more physically active. Every now and again I’ll have flashbacks to me running somewhere and I’ll remember what it was like to weigh 70 pounds less. I used to have some really good runs back in the day. Now it’s difficult for me to run even for 15 minutes on the treadmill at a reasonable pace. I’m hopeful that with hard work and dedication that I can get back to where I was before. In fact, I think I’ll go to the gym right now. See ya later!